It's not easy for me to admit I am weak. It makes perfect sense that I would be stubborn though as that is the exact reason I am still tipping the scale at 220+ lbs after two years that started so well...
I failed again, two years running, er... not running. I spent a lot of effort last year to get my health into gear. I really did... you HAVE to believe me...
No, I know, I don't even believe me.
I really want this to be the year. I want to get to a point where it's not all I think about. I want to push the thoughts out of my mind that say, "you can't", "you're too fat", "it won't fit", "you'll get looks"... and especially "no one takes you seriously because you are a fat girl."
You may have heard, "a year from now you're going to wish you started now". I need to change that to, "a year from now you're going to wish you stuck with it now, and the next day, and the next day...".
So, now that I have admitted defeat, shown a desire to make a change, and depressed anyone that reads this, it's time to re-up...
It's not really the third time for me as I have been on some form of a diet since the age of 12 or 13, but I'll say it anyway...
Third time's the charm.
The good news is this. Last year I managed to keep 17 lbs off. I yo-yo'd like a crazy person between 244 and 213 but settled at 227 for year end.
Goal #1 - First Blood: Break under 200 and say goodbye to that damn 2 once and for all.
Goal #2 - Electric Boogaloo: Get back to 170 for the first time since freshman year of high school.
Goal #3 - The Final Stand: Hit between 135-115 (don't freak out on the 115, I'm 5'2") and get my first ever maintenance plan in the works.
I will get one or all of these done this year...
So far, being too tired and watching TV has done NOTHING to get me closer to the finish line. Weird, huh?
I need help with a plan. I've got a kick-start scheduled for the diet portion that will take me through the first quarter of the year, but need to get moving around and need advice wherever I can get it.
Please offer your suggestions and support as you are able.
This will be the year for a change for me! I can feel it!
